Crossdressing is really great! You get to be the exact woman that you want to be. It's perfect amid the imperfection that is being human and trying to be something that you were not raised to be. It's not quite so perfect when you try on some clothes that you adore only to find out that they were not made to work with your body. It's OK! How does it feel? If it feels good, then who cares. If you look in the mirror and are happy, then go with it.Over the years I've adjusted my wardrobe to suit my body - play of the strengths and avoid drawing attention to the non-feminine aspects. I'm happy with my results when I look in the mirror and at photos of myself.
Photos? What is it with us and our obsession with taking pictures of ourselves. And I mean a LOT of pictures? For me it's a means to measure my progress and celebrate my arrival into being me. I don't delete very many of these pictures but at some point I need to do so to ensure my kids don't discover some old hard drive after I've returned to the dirt.My Flickr photostream was closing in on 800 pictures which is nice for me to look at but I'm sure the typical drive-by Flickrette will not take the time to look at all of them. I certainly do not look at all of everyone elses photostream, no offense. So the first "turn" for this post is the fact that I'm starting to prune my Flickr photos. There are easily a couple hundred earlier pics which are nothing more than a history lesson, but not all that interesting. Over the next couple weeks my photostream will be shrinking.
"Turn" two is the culmination of a general trend I've noticed in myself and my dressing in the past 20 years. I started out wanting only lingerie, corsets, etc. Pretty quickly I wanted to wear things that I saw normal woman wearing and the lingerie emphasis decreased. This has continued over the years with me shopping for normal clothes at normal stores (Torrid, Lane Bryant, Kohl's, Target, Amazon).
As I am getting ready to taking the show on the road and going into public I've realized that I need to continue on my "turn." You see, although I've been focusing on things that normal women wear, but that focus has been way too fancy! The majority of my wardrobe is skirts, tops, dresses and heels. I love most of them. They make me so happy. But when I think about what I'm going to wear to meet a friend to see a movie, I cannot wear a dress and heels.
And here I was all proud of myself for dressing like a real woman, but I've only addressed going to work, church, a fancy date or girls night out. What about a movie? What about the mall? What about running errands? If I want to go out and about I want to try to blend in; I certainly do not want to stand out. I'm 6' which already feels like I have a target on my back.I bought a top at Kohl's the other morning that will work with a skirt or with jeans. I ordered a couple pair of shoes from Payless: mary jane flats, ballet flats, and modest 1" sandals. I'm making that turn into modest, "everyday" clothes. Gosh I need an invite to a fancy party though...
